The courage to stand up for myself even when all around people were telling me that I could stick it out and that I should just ignore the very polluted fish tank.

The courage to follow my intuition, even in the midst of the most toxic environment I have ever experienced.

The courage to follow my intuition, even if my work was seamless and spotless but the fish tank so so dirty I could barely move.

The courage to listen to my body, even with the peanut gallery chatter.

The FULL and UTTER trust in myself. AAAAAAh, the aftermath of this trust feels like HEAVEN.

The deep understanding that pain is when my body tells me something needs to change and the quicker I listen to it, the quicker I will get on the life trajectory I really want.

The deep understanding that no amount of stress regulation techniques will work if the environment I am spending most of my life in is polluted like a dark fish tank. THIS knowledge I will take deeply within me from now on to help thousands more people reclaim their natural state of joy and happiness.

The deep understanding of what TRUE longevity and healthspan are and what they are NOT. True longevity and healthspan can only be achieved when you fully chose yourself, and that is the truth. No special diet, supplement, gut protocol, freaking tests, and other sexy stuff could ever take the place of ‘choosing yourself’ foundation.

The deep understanding that my body ALWAYS knows best and FIRST and FOREMOST no matter what anyone says, not even self-development and law of attraction gurus.

The knowing that I am THE queen and ruler of my body and no one gets to have a word on how I run it.

The courage to stand up for my HEALTH first and foremost.

Peace in my heart that I gave people many benefit-of-the-doubt chances. They blew it. And then I chose me. And I am deeply proud of myself for that. And I am at peace moving on.

This year I got really good at setting boundaries with people - this is a skill that must be there for a rock solid health foundation.

I learned that letting people do what they would have done anyway is the best way to triage the people in my life.

Being quiet and internally creating my outside circumstantial life for major LEVERAGE.

ONCE AND FOR ALL stopped trying and stopped wishing people were different and stopped trying to make them see deeper —- I now declare to myself that I only have space for people in my life who are my people and that I already resonate and like and who are easy to interact with and have a relationship with. No more projects.

My two boys seeing me in the arena living life contrast and making decisions that are better for myself and my health.

My two boys watching me quit my job for the sake of my health. This gives them permission to stand up for their own life and health.

This wonderful Substack writing experience — I love writing here, it is so satisfying and wonderful even if no one ever reads it!

The wonderful trajectory I am now on - infinite possibilities of major amazing proportions.